Jobs.....
I have been applying quite a bit the past few days. Really hoping I get at least a couple of phone calls. I had a conversation with a colleague today and shared with her how I felt abt the organisation and management. For a moment not too long ago, we thought something good will turn out from what was happening. But now, we still don't see results, infact, what we got was a tyrant of a lady boss. How do you deal with really bad-tempered lady bosses? I really dunno how.
Anyway, I'm slightly deluded by all these happenings. In just a yr, I've felt the unhappiness in this company growing from bad to worst, and I'm feeling it. I sense fear in myself and all because of that lady boss.
I dont think all bosses out there are as bad as mine. The thought of the male boss resigning would have made things better, but now.. it seems worst.
I dont want to say i regret being in this company, because the work itself is quite good and interesting, but the management of it all is just such a failure. My ex colleagues said it right, I joined in a bad time. I think back and wonder, if I had been more patient would I be a happier person at work now? If I didnt take up the initial temp job first, would I have gotten a much better job elsewhere? Nevermind about the pay and the no increment; but unhappiness in an organisation is bad enough.
I'm still pissed over that 2 months termination policy. I feel trapped and forced to stay on. At this stage, no one is gng to headhunt me, no one is gng to pay big bucks to buy me over. I'm still no doubt considered a fresh grad with just a 1 yr and a half working experience. I really do feel a little disheartened and unmotivated. For the past 6 months, things are just not looking the way it should have been or promised to be. An email came by to say "no increment for the financial yr of 05/06 coz there was no proper workplan" yet the last line of the email wrote, "your contributions has made the organisation scale new heights, thank you for your hard work." Isn't this a joke, a damm bad one i must say. What an email.
I feel I'm not moving forward, not learning what I want to learn. I actually crave to be busy most of the time. I want to feel the stress, at least I know I'm working and not just surfing or chit chatting or just feeling plain tired at the butt.
Well...., nuff said. Just needed to vent out my frustrations.
At least Im not doing some bird flu project my other newer colleagues are made to do!
