I have to admit. I have been slacking alot and not living up my challenge I gave to myself a couple of months back. Damm!
Looks like my dreams of losing that 4kg, 1 dress size, 2 inches off, are all gone and out into the land of wishful thinking. But, not all hope is gone. I am still trying to train for the 10 km SHAPE RUN. It's not very far off, exactly 1.5 months to go. My plan and I need to be really disciplined is to go gym 4 times a week.
Plans:
31 May - Spin class by RAM 01 June - 5 km run 03 June - Spin Class 05 June - 5km run 07 June - Spin Class 08 June - 6 km run 11 June - 6km run + Yoga 13 June - 6 Km 15 June - 6 Km 17 June - Body Combat/Pump 19 June - 8km run 21 June - Spin 22 June - 8 km 25 June - Spin Class 27 June - 8 km 28 June - Spin 01 July - 8km 03 July - 8 km 05 July - Spin 06 July - 10 Km 08 July - 10 Km 10 July - 10km 11 July - 10 km 13 July - 10 Km 16 July - SHAPE RUN!!!!
I have been applying quite a bit the past few days. Really hoping I get at least a couple of phone calls. I had a conversation with a colleague today and shared with her how I felt abt the organisation and management. For a moment not too long ago, we thought something good will turn out from what was happening. But now, we still don't see results, infact, what we got was a tyrant of a lady boss. How do you deal with really bad-tempered lady bosses? I really dunno how.
Anyway, I'm slightly deluded by all these happenings. In just a yr, I've felt the unhappiness in this company growing from bad to worst, and I'm feeling it. I sense fear in myself and all because of that lady boss.
I dont think all bosses out there are as bad as mine. The thought of the male boss resigning would have made things better, but now.. it seems worst.
I dont want to say i regret being in this company, because the work itself is quite good and interesting, but the management of it all is just such a failure. My ex colleagues said it right, I joined in a bad time. I think back and wonder, if I had been more patient would I be a happier person at work now? If I didnt take up the initial temp job first, would I have gotten a much better job elsewhere? Nevermind about the pay and the no increment; but unhappiness in an organisation is bad enough.
I'm still pissed over that 2 months termination policy. I feel trapped and forced to stay on. At this stage, no one is gng to headhunt me, no one is gng to pay big bucks to buy me over. I'm still no doubt considered a fresh grad with just a 1 yr and a half working experience. I really do feel a little disheartened and unmotivated. For the past 6 months, things are just not looking the way it should have been or promised to be. An email came by to say "no increment for the financial yr of 05/06 coz there was no proper workplan" yet the last line of the email wrote, "your contributions has made the organisation scale new heights, thank you for your hard work." Isn't this a joke, a damm bad one i must say. What an email.
I feel I'm not moving forward, not learning what I want to learn. I actually crave to be busy most of the time. I want to feel the stress, at least I know I'm working and not just surfing or chit chatting or just feeling plain tired at the butt.
Well...., nuff said. Just needed to vent out my frustrations.
At least Im not doing some bird flu project my other newer colleagues are made to do!
1. NEVER BLEACH YOUR HAIR. 2. DON'T TRUST HAIR SALONS WHO ARE NOT FAMOUR 3. NEVER DO A TWO TONE WITH THE HIGHLIGHTS ULTRA LIGHTER THAN THE BASE COLOUR. SLIGHTLY CLOSER IS GOOD ENOUGH. 4. DONT TRY TO BE SO VAIN. IT HURTS WHEN GO WRONG.
ARGH!! ANOTHER BAD MOVE FROM ME.. MY HAIR IS TOO BRIGHT!!!!
What happens when work suddenly takes a bad turn and things are just not gng right at all? PANIC!
That's what I'm feeling now... PANIC and STRESS!
First time.... first time this is happening for me. It's such a learning experience for me. But learning aside, its more important to solve the problem. I'm glad to know I have contacts who are able to help me out during this short period of time. But I honestly dread heading back to work, because I really dont want to face my new boss. Fear is really the only word I can gather from this. Man... I gotta live with it!
For now.... I just wanna 'enjoy' the last few hrs of Sunday before a hellish week ahead!
In conjunction with my Body for Life Challenge, (which btw is quite difficult to follow) I've decided to participate for the SHAPE Run 06 happening on 16 July 2006.
My challenge/aim: To run the full 10 km.
The furthest I've ran is 8km and that was 3 years ago in Melbourne where Alvina, Masako and I participated in a run. That itself was really my challenge, because I was never a long distance jogger. But anyway, I had plans to participate in the Standard Chartered run, so i guess this July event will be a prelude to the next run. I have to start training now, 5km to me is already very painful.
I hope with this to motivate me, I'll be able to fulfill my body for life challenge.
SHAPE Run is a women-only event. More info pls log on to www.shape.com.sg .
