I'm feeling it...
This week doesn't seem all that right for me. It's like I woke up on the wrong side of the bed everyday. It doesn't help that I'm not feeling all that well, with an irritating dry cough haunting me each every hour. It comes with an occassionally sore throat too.
Anyway, work doesn't look all that good these days. I'm feeling the stress because of the amount of work waiting for me to do. One of my colleague has left and since I'm working with 2 major projects with her, I'm currently the only in charge of it. Till the next change in workplan, I'm really swamped with a lot to do. Though not everything is happening at the same time, but it's the bits and pieces of everything that irritates me. I don't quite know how to prioritise which to do first. Worst of all, I received bad news today about a certain project which meant to happen in late April or early May. It might now be postponed to late July. What frustrates me is the other party I'm working with. I feel a sense of stubborness in the other party, which doesn't quite wanna listen to what i have to say and suggest. Moreover, another person which I would like to rely on for leadership isn't all that co-operative too. I've been greatly affected by that. And since then, it affected my entire day.
But what is affecting me most would be the fact that a few more of my colleagues are planning to leave. They had enough of the company and feel it is time to leave. Each is planning to leave almost about the same time. Therefore, leaving me and just a few more colleagues to handle the team. Yes, we are hiring, but there's no leadership. This may sound like an escalated promotion for me, but it's not something I'm looking forward to, because honestly, I'm not confident to take up the position. I'm still learning and I want to learn more first before i take on a greater responsibility.
Actually thinking abt my job, I feel this isn't the job for me. Events planning and management is fine, but it's the policy writing that is killing me. Anyway, when one starts to dread gng to work means it's time to move on. I am feeling that. Also, I think it's the management, particularly, my boss who is a micro-manager who happens to be very old-school too. I feel the pressure... the unnecessary pressure.
Oh well... this entry is for me to vent my frustrations. 10 more days to Melbourne. Maybe that will lift my spirits a little.
