I think im at one of those moments when you feel a little aimless in life. It's like u reflected on the past year and looking ahead in the new year, what have I achieved and what I want to achieve this year. By next month, it would be my 1 yr anniversary working full time. I wonder if the past yr had been fruitful and exciting or just mundane and boring.
I wonder what would 2006 be like for me. I dont think this is one of those new yr resolution entries. I'm a bit too late for that, but I do wonder if 2006 would be a good year for me. I wonder if I would still be working at SIF or somewhere else. I wonder if I would really make full use of my time and do something worthwhile like community service or join a new activity. I wonder if I would make the correct decisions. I really wonder.
I think life is gng to pass me by really fast and I'm not sure if I can catch up with it fully. Imagine, in 6 yrs I'll be 30 years old. Doesn't seem far away from now. I wonder in 6 years would I have achieved something great in my life. Would I scale that corporate ladder and be successful, would I remain happy, would I even be in Singapore, would I be married? 6 years.... seems too short to achieve greatness. At the way I'm leading my life, I think i'm no where near in achieving anything.
Would it be the time to start on a 5 yr plan, starting this year? For example: 1. To be a manager by the age of 30 2. To earn a certain amount by 30 3. To be happily married by 30 4. To own my fav car 5. To have travelled to some exotic destination 6. To have served the community through volunteer works 7. To have lead a healthly lifestyle 8. To have attained a Masters degree in Business or something else 9. To have a group of very close buddies 10. To be contented in life.
Looking at it... I dont sound very adventurous. I dont even know what I want and that's scary. At 23 moving on 24.... I feel I'm still a teenager clueless about my achievements in life. I wonder if it's still too early to worry about such things, or do I really have to start and plan my life till 30 at least. And after 30... I'll plan my next 10 years till 40.
Financially, I should have a 5 years plan. I've been having thoughts on whether I should invest my CPF $$ . My mum is into it and it seems to be lucrative, kevin is interested and has decided to invest. I wonder if I should? I'm not that sort of person who's really into stocks and shares etc... but thinking ahead for my future... I should pluck up the courage and start young. Not that I want to dabble in shares now, but perhaps start educating myself on these various possibilites. Looking at what I'm getting paid and how I'm spending my $$, in 5 yrs i would still be a poor woman comparatively. It's a scary thought to look ahead and see the amount you need to save to : 1) Buy a car 2) Buy a HDB/Condo 3) Marry and start a Family 4) Kid's education 5) Bills, Bills and Bills. 6) Retirement 7) Others (holidays, misc expenses, shopping, maintenance)
Gosh. Dont you think it's starting to get a little scarier and frightening to see how close we are to such realities in life. To think I'm beginning to adjust to becoming a young adult in my almost mid 20s, where I have to start thinking about my life in the 30s. Mid 20s is gng to be a short transitional period. It's gng to be tough.....
