I guess there are times in life where u have you really mind your own business. I wonder if i should do the same for myself? In a week, and something happened. No.. not on me.. but on people dear to me.
I'm disappointed at how things happened this way. I'm affected by both parties. Though I'm not the one directed on but I'm sure the impact on me is great too. Being a middle person is no easy matter. I thought I had to facilitate matters and I did but I feel I really shouldn't, simply cos both sides dont quite care actually. It's like they have the "take it or leave it" or " dont want.. then dont want lor..." mentality. I hate such mentality but I have to live with the reality of these minds. I dunno if this is called giving up or being petty. I guess I have no say in this though I am quite affected by it.
I'm sad at how things have happened and fingers are pointing at every direction it can go. I wonder what happened to the foundation and the closeness? It seems like children playing and one day someone throws sand in someone's eyes and the person says.. "I hate you forever" and the child really hates the person forever just because of one act. Okay, I may be simplifying the situation (the situation is far worse). What I'm sadden by is the way how these people are taking it. It's like as though the use by date is up and it's time to throw away.
Do we have use-by-dates, that once times up... u just throw it away with whatever history both good and bad? Is it only with needs and wants should one's value continues and once that's gone... u throw it away as well?
I'm a little confused with the entire matter and how such mentalities work. I dunno if as I grow older I'll be enlightened or are these people just being foolish? Perhaps throwing away is a part of the easy way out... as part of the easiest solution as part of something convenient to do.
Perhaps it's pride too.... perhaps it's ego....perhaps it's selfishness. I dunno...
