When things are looking slightly better and when I thought something positive has finally taken place, a little thing can just make everything go away.
I dont understand why I shld even bother... but I guess....i feel i have the right too and if arguable that's still not right... i still feelll the least u can do...is accomodate. But nope.
If only things were not like this... if only things were different in the past. If only I never had the life I'm having now or had then.
Honestly, why shld i bother... really. Why shld i be held a prisoner and refuse to even find the guts to break free.
Simple thing.... a simple thing can really mean so much.
I look ard me.. and im jealous. I really am.... why am i not like them or have what they have? What did I do to be dealing what I am going through now? Why in the first place... shld i even be going through this?
