Well.... i guess one lesson I must learn is to let things go and move on. To not bother about the past and look forward to the future. I guess i've been too pessimistic and angsty over the things that I've been through. Some might say, it shldn't have happened, you shldn't have suffered.. but I guess... what's done is done.... and no point to bother.
Heck care mentality is the best mentality ever. You wont be bothered about stuff... just move on and act blur always. If that makes one happy that is. I guess.... i have to continue to be patient and wait and see... and see if changes do happen... and cast that benefit of the doubt once again.
I guess as u grow older, u seek more answers and reasons.. and i guess being an adult is so complicated.... u'll never get what u want.. unlike when u're a child, or u had to do was to be very obediant or cry.
The word ZEN is very much in my mind now. I shldn't put in all my heart into such things, coz you'll end up being hurt the most.
Im frustrated still... no doubt... but I cant stay at the same level always, coz honestly.. i came to realised.. i'm really left alone for this one.. alone to fend it myself. There's no short cut of people tellin me things.. but rather... i have to find out myself, and if i dont... move on.. dont bother abt it. If that's really reality... then that's really reality.
Life is unfair. It has always been. But what to do? nothing... do nothing at all.
