FIRST SUNDAY ALONE. Feels kinda weird...my first sunday without kevin to attend church with and going out later. For the first time, I am actually home on a sunday afternoon. Geez... this loneliness is getting to me. Luckily i had an okay morning and early afternoon. Went church with parents, followed by a quick lunch at clementi. Had this spicy thai beef noodles. It's actually quite good. Went back to church for a meeting after lunch. To those who dont know, I've returned to church activities. Yep.. volunteered my services to RCIA. Thought it's time to move up to an adult level then to continue with RCIY. It's also a good time to join some activities since kev aint ard plus my dad had been askin me when will i contribute back my services to church. So.. i've decided to join the publicity section and be a facilitator for RCIA. Today's meeting was for that. We came up with a theme and some copy for our promotional materials. My group is pretty good, we have a computer technical person, a copywriter, a business man, an unemployed (me!) and a guy working for levis. Cool... seems like a good group.. hope things will go well. Will show soon the finished products of our promotional materials. Yep.. so after the meeting, i went home. Hai... I think my sunday life will be like this for the next 5 months. My parents shld be happy, haha.. spending so much time with them, ha!
oh well..... i so need a job badly! I forgot to mention, cold storage rejected me. They decided to find a candidate within the company. Now i wonder whether i made a right move to reject convertium. This was what i didnt want to happen, to regret a decision. Now I have people tellin me i shld just work anywhere and get experience, later then find a good job. ARGH!
oh welll.....
anyway... will update later... tryin to webcam with kevin.
Project Kill-Time. Yup... kevin is gone, he has gone back to Melbourne for his final semester. 5 months later will I only get to see him. Parting was hard, I think it's harder to send him off then he to send me off. I dunno why.... but i felt more emotional now compared to then. But oh well... I have to face it and still carry on with life only this time it's without him for now.
Now that he's gone, I have more time at hand. Good in a sense that I can do some things i wanna do, bad in a sense I dont get to share it with kevin or more so maybe have too much time at hand. Therefore my aim for these 5 months is to kill time and make time move super fast, hence the title.... "PROJECT KILL-TIME". I have kinda given myself some missions to accomplish during these months and some achievements I wish to have. Below are some things I've thought abt to kill my time:
Find a job!!!! a FULL TIME job!!! a job i hope i will really like!!!!
Adopt a DOG!! Kev's wish for me to have one while he's away.. i must fulfill that wish.
Exercise consistently! I had it.. the amt of weight i've put on in just two years or less is horrible and devasting. My aim... in 5 months.. lose 5 - 6 kg. Possible? I dunno... but I think 1 month 1 kg is a good and healthy aim. Ah! Lose flabs, and gain muscles! I must!!
Eat more veges and fruits and cut down on meat. If Kareen can lose 7 kg by not eating so much meat.. I think I can do the same as well. Moreover, veges and fruits are healthy and full of vitamins. My immune system and other parts of the internal organs aren't that fabulous and healthy, some anti-toxidant stuff will be good for me.
(This is related to aim no. 1) Save enough $$ and fly to Melbourne to visit Kevin and be a rich tourist buying all the lovely clothing from Chapel Street! Hahha!
Socialise more especially with long lost friends or simply friends. I think this is a good time to catch up with my friends, more so, try to use this time to make up for some lost time throughout the years.
Take up or learn a new sport or activity. I'm thinking of going back to dancing, but not classical dance but maybe join a dance school and learn MTV hiphop, Jazz Funk, Salsa? Or maybe join a Yoga or Pilates school. Need some relaxation for both my body and mind and of coz the toning i need very badly.
Yep... that's abt everything I can think off. I'm sure there will be many more to come along the way but for now I think these 7 items will be quite a handful. Not sure if i can even fulfill all of the above... but nevertheless.. i'll still try my best.
Well.. i know time will pass by fast... i'm glad at least i still have family ard to spent time with, at least i know i wont feel so lonely. Of coz now, there will be blog entries to read everyday, since i'm sure kevin will read my blog to fnd out what my daily life is like. So pple... I'M BACK to blogging!
I declare PROJECT KILL-TIME has offically started! *GONGggggg*
Vday 05, 4th Anniversary Yep.. we're 4! How young is that!! hahaha. Nah... pretty old already actually. 4 yrs together is no mean feat. Of coz.. vday is our special day, not becoz we became victims of the commercialisation of love but more so a celebration of the day we become a couple and the love we shared since that very day till now. Life indeed has been very different since he came into my life, there were ups and downs, but most imptly... i still love him and he still loves me and the fact we continue to be together and not get stick of it proves alot abt our relationship. I am glad he is still by my side and that there are still things to discover in this relationship.
To you... (kevin)... thank you for this very day and that it did eventually happened... i'm glad to have met you and have u in my life.
Day: Kite Flying at Marina Bay... a rather unusual activity but nevertheless quite thrilling. We wanted to bowl, have a one-on-one challenge but the lanes were all taken up. Moved on to beach rd to try to catch a show but the shows were not at the timins we wanted. Wanted to sing ktv.. but kinda ex for a short period of time...hence we simply moved on to our dinner place at chjimes. We ate at the new brazillian place, Carnivorous. Pretty neat place, but a lil small. The food was not bad, loads of meat to eat, 12 kinds (beef, lamb, chicken, pork, and fish), it was free flow and includes a salad bar buffet. But it's only a good place for people who loves meat and salty stuff. But i wouldn't mind heading back there again.. when i'm hungry and rich! :) After the dinner, we headed to the river hongbao to see the funfair and all the chinese stalls. This year's decorations were nicer than the previous years, neater and cleaner too. Fortune God is still huge and magnificent, but wat was most interesting was the man who's posing as Fortune God, gng round giving blessings and predictions to people. It was as if he's some fengshui master, but i recognise him and he's just an extra in some TV8 drama serials. Hhaha... most of the things he said are definately memorised. But people seemed to believe the things he says. How on earth would he know if the person is 'wang' or 'bu ji li'? Also, another great sight i saw was groups of people taking their umbrellas waiting for the Big Fortune God let go gold paper. Quite a hilarious sight where people rushed to the gold paper. Nevertheless, it was nice to see some people still into chinese traditions. After that.. we headed home.
Though we didnt do any significant or special things... it was still fun to be with each other, enjoying the kite flying and the dinner.
what shld i do? I have yet to make a decision. Now, I am contemplating to reject the job offered to me. I am not a sales oriented person and the position requires me to be one, hence the title, Sales and Marketing Executive. I am still waiting for cold storage to reply me and I do hope I get short listed for the 2nd interview. However, I am doubtful... i can't help feel.. i might not get it. Question is i am suppose to start work on monday and till now i have avoided any contact with the company pretending that i'm in msia for the week. I wish to delay the process of signing and confirming the contract, but then... i am not sure shld i even take up the job. I am torn between being choosy and wait for the right job for me or just take the job despite not enjoying it as much coz u may never know when i will get another job offer.
Shld i wait or shld i just go ahead? I can't seem to come to a decision and so much so any discussion on this topic i really dont wish to participate in. Unfortunately, i have to make that decision soon and quick. I cannot waste the company's time and money and i cannot waste my time frustrating and contemplating over this matter. Will GOD be good to me and give me what i want... or do i have to continue to work hard on something i dont really want and eventually move on to something else i would love to do in a couple of years time. I need some help here.... and i am still torn in between. Maybe because I dare not say no... it doesn't help that i know the people... as in the one who introduced me the job is an ex-colleague of mine. I dont wish to lie or betray them.. but my personal goals and happiness lie in my this very decision. I dont wish to start on a bad note but then again... do i have to be this choosy? What if cold storage rejects me... then all these things have gone to waste? Will i regret my decision whether i get cold storage or not. i really dunno.. but i think i will feel lousy for a long time.
The corporate world indeed is a cruel and heartless world. Even before i enter the work force, i've been pushed to such an extent. What's right and what's wrong... i can't seem to decide upon. I cannot delay much further too.
Shld i just take it and quit after 3 months? what's the point? shld i even take the job up. That's another thing.
life's abt choices and decisions... i made one wrong move and i regretted it, i dont want to regret my decision now.
I have finally received THE email. I dunno what to do or how to respond. But yes, the email, the contract has finally arrived! Everything seems good and written much alike wat was agreed on but I dont know what to do with it. I still need to wait for cold storage. I really prefer to work for cold storage, more like i WANT to work for cold storage. The present job offer is good, i know the people there will take care of me but will i enjoy my job. I guess i moved on too fast and now am regreting my decision. I have to find an excuse to delay the signing of contract. By right, the contract states i have to start work on the 14th of Feb, but now i need to delay further, preferably a week later. I really want cold storage to reply me, be it good or bad news. ARGH!!!
I'm so glad i have CNY as an excuse to make for pretending not to read the email coz i am in 'MSIA'. Sheesh... such lies i have to make for my future. Sigh.... i would like to think i have work right after CNY but now... i would prefer not too. Question now is that, 'will cold storage hire me?". I really hoped I am more outstanding than the others the HR dept has interviewed. I hope i showed enough interest towards working for cold storage that they will take me in. Sigh... decisions... dilemma... my future!
Alright.. i think i shld enjoy my hols in Msia first before i worry again what i should do. Honestly, what shld i do? Shld i just forget abt cold storage and uphold my decision to take up the job with convertium or shld i give up convertium and hope for a better job offer?
Cold storage has to reply me!
Oh well...... shall not dwell into it.
Okie.. a lil update on my life....
The weekend was pretty much the same. Friday I went to marcus house for mahjong, and for the first time i lost $0.80 only. Those whom i've played mah jong with would know how much i've lost each time i played with them. Hehhehe... i actually won a few rounds... ahhaha!! So proud of myself. I hope this is a sign that future games i can see myself winning $$ and not losing anymore! Crossing my fingers!!!! CNY round the corner too...means more chances for me to play. Oppss.... itchy fingers now.
Saturday, spent the day cleaning the house's windows and had reunion dinner with kevin's dad's family at bedok. It was a rather uncomfortable dinner everyone felt forced to have dinner together especially the cousins but i guess as long it made kev's grandma happy.. it's all worth it. The dinner was a rather brief one. I was glad for once since i came back... saturday was a slow and easy day. No late night clubbing or bowling. Spent some quality time with kevin as well, so that was good. He's leaving soon and we havent really spend some couple time, been always out with friends gng bowling or drinking, so it was good to have some nice ice-cream time with him at holland v.
Sunday, was suppose to have CNY lunch with parents Godson and family, but last min the lunch was cancelled coz the timing was a bit off. That was good coz i would only be able to attend 30 mins of it if it really did happen. Afternoon, kev and i went for a play titled, Alam Tam and the 3 bears, written by two Singaporean journalists. The play was performed at the action theatre, the room upstairs. The plays had good cast members to name a few, gerald chew, pam oei, koh chieng mun and charmaine ang. The first play was about seeking an identity, a racial identity and a nationalist identity. It was abt an american chinese man conversation or rather debate with a hongkonger old man over whether the statue of King George the sixth should be removed and give way to the statue of Dr. Sun Yet Sen, the father of modern China. The dialouge was presented as the ABC fighting for the cause of Dr. Sun Yet Sen, stating that Hong Kong shld be pro Dr. Sun and give glory to the revolution he had for modern china. However, on the other hand, the hongkonger old man believes otherwise and that most hongkongers dont even know who dr. sun yet sen is really is and what was his cause. Instead, hongkongers knows singer Alam Tham more and worship the singer more. Thus the problem of identity lies in the dialouge, of whether you are chinese or not. The whole play was rather long and kinda long winded, but the moral behind it was pretty evident in the play. The second play, titled, the 3 bears, was much better and more entertaining. Pam Oei, was the leading lady and it was the story of a physics teacher and her year long struggle to take care of her dying father who suffered a severe stroke. The story or the intention of the story was to use the theory of relativity to explain certain issues such as TIME. Though i didnt understand the theory of relativity, the play's adaption of the theory using 3 bears was pretty smart. The story was both humourous and heart-warming. It was heart-felt and touching to see a continous passion of love for both father and daughter. The whole story was really talking about if only we can stall or slow down time. In relations to physics, it's more of trying to bring life the theory of relativity, that at a different persecptive, time seems slower than to another perspective. The moral i got out of it is that... time is never constant... time do speed up and time do slow down. However, time speeds up when u least expected... for the play's case... time moved on faster when the father was dying. Therefore... time does defy physics... time is never constant and it never travels at a constant speed. Good play. Unfortunately the run has ended.
I will be watching another play next week, Dangerous Liasion, directed by Beatrice Chia. I think that one will be a good show too. Looking forward to it. There are more plays i really want to watch too, like Sound of Music and the Singapore Fringe Festival. But by then Kevin has left.. so must start finding pple to watch with already. Anyone interested in any of the abv plays???
This week is CNY... and tom i'm off to Batu Pahat for the usual family vistation. This time life there is gng to be more boring and lifeless. My two cousins aren;'t gng and the rest are my younger cousins.. i'm too old to be in their fun. There isn't DVD players too and only pirated VCDs to watch.. most of which are really of bad quality, so ye.... hai. The only thing i look forward in BP is the food. That's abt it. Oh well.... luckily the trip is short and i'll be back on thursday. This weekend is gng to be pretty pack too... visitations, clubbing and v day.
Alrite... enough of all these. Here's wishing everyone a HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
It isn't so bad! Actually Mambo Nights on Zouk Wednesdays are not that bad. I mean the people dancing to the sounds of rick ashley, bananaramas etc... are still interesting to look at. I think entertainment wise.... i give it a 100%. I went for mambo last night and i thought the music was actually not that bad. The music wasn't entirely 80s music but a good mix of some good 90s (late 90s) commercial music. It was good fun.... and i must admit... i did try to copy some moves... man i respect those pple on the podium. They know every word and action to the song.. literally every word. The crowd was different.. no doubt.. a lot more young people, but the crowd was a fun bunch. hhehe...... okie.... mambo nights afterall isnt so bad. Hhahaha... it's even better that its ladies night. Ha!
Anyway.. i guess i have to enjoy whatever partying and late night activities i have now before i start working after CNY. I really wonder if TIME is really on my side once i start working. Does my life just end the moment i start working or is there still time to really let loose and enjoy a nice night out. Is it possible? It seems that those i know who are working seem pretty restricted or at least tired to party hard. Weekends seem more like better days to sleep and rest than to play hard. Sigh.... i kinda miss being a student... leading that carefree life. I mean studyin sux especially if there are exams.. but still... that's the only thing u worry about - results! Once u start working ... u must worry a lot more...it doesn;'t help that u are in SINGAPORE as well. The culture encourages worrying and stress. Hai.... i lil bit of the australian culture will do singapore some good actually. Once again... maybe coz i refuse to admit i'm growing older and that i have responsibilites to take up and handle. Imagine in 7 years time i most prob be getting married and start thinking of having kids. Oh my... 7 yrs!!! i still can rem what i did 7 years ago... didn' seem all that far ago.
I think trying to admit my life is shortening fast is quite a feat. I wonder whether i led a good childhood, teenhood and young adulthood. I wonder if i was happy during those times and never regreted anything i did. I guess i wished i had more freedom in the past.... maybe my social life would be much better now... but i wont go there. I guess overall i'm glad i had encountered some experiences to make me learn some mistakes that i wont make again or improvements that are needed to be made for the sake of my future happiness and satisfaction in life. I forsee a rough patch in life now. I must stay contented in whatever i choose to do, what i've done, and what had happened. I may have still alot of uncertainty hidden inside me that needs some settlement but i do hope answers will be revealed soon. I guess everyone meets confusion... it's simply how u handle it and solve it that makes the difference.
Well..... to me.... it's welcome to the real world. I am an adult now.
Humour....just for fun Ye..... if u caught the russell peter's website and saw that 45 min clip.... here's more to add into the humour. I quote CONFUCIUS.....
Confucius Say... Baseball is wrong - man with four balls cannot walk.
Wife who put husband in doghouse soon find him in cathouse.
Man who fight with wife all day get no piece at night.
It take many nails to build crib but one screw to fill it.
Man who drive like hell bound to get there.
Don't eat the snow where the huskies go!
He who sitteth on an upturned tack shall surely rise.
Even the greatest of whales is helpless in middle of desert.
Man that is stuck in pantry has his ass in jam.
Secretary not permanent fixture until screwed on top of desk
Man who stick foot in mouth get athlete's tongue!
Man that go to bed with itchy butt wake up with sticky fingers!
When called an idiot sometimes is better to be quiet, than open mouth and remove all doubt.
Everyone has a photographic memory, some people just don't have film! Passionate kiss like spider's web, soon lead to undoing of fly.
Virginity like bubble, one prick all gone. Marriage is like game of poker. You start with pair and end with full house.
Foolish man give wife grand piano, wise man give wife upright organ.
Man with one chopstick go hungry.
Hole happy, whole body happy.
Wash your face in the morning, neck at night.
Elevator smell different to midget.
A bird in hand makes hard to blow nose.
Man who put head on Railroad track to listen for train likely to end up with splitting headache.
Yup... confucius indeed is a wise man. hahahaha........
