2004 has certainly flew by super fast. So much happened this year; i dont think there was enough time to even absorb everything or even digest it all. I wonder would 2005 be a better year for everything. 2005 marks the start of my career, a time where I will be working as a full-timer and working towards my future. Within the year 2004, people changed, some moved on, some wondered why certain things happened for no reason, some wondered if change was good and some wished things would be the same as the past. Whatever it is.... since coming back... indeed alot has changed. In fact, i dont feel as comfortable as before or at least i dont feel very much at home as i thought i would. Could it be because i became so used to life in melbourne, that actually i rather be there than here in sg? Maybe it was the presence of kevin that made me feel like this. I guess i liked being with him there, plus the endless freedom i get when im over in melbourne.
Anyway.... maybe because i've grown one year older and that i'm heading into a life which requires me to be much more mature and independant. No more fun and play as i would like to have, but rather it is the time where the more impt things must matter first. Indeed i wished i would remain 18 or 19 forever, unfortunately... as one grows older.. one must have more responsibilities.
I'm not sure if im ready to take on such a role. I am scared.. really afraid of what the future holds for me. Will i succeed or will i be one of those failures? Will i be able to sustain myself or forever in debt? Whatever it is... i guess i have to take on the challenge.
I will continue to enjoy what's left of 2004 before embarking into the new 2005.
