Another bad 'grades' semester Hai... just received an assignment today, and the grade.. well wasn't very good. I am really worried for my other assignments. This semester has really been alot of play.. lack of concentration and motivation... i hate this feeling.. but i feel it's too late to do anything. Maybe why i'm feeling to disappointed with myself is because of kevin's highly good grades semester. He has 2 HDs in a matter of 2 weeks. Good on him.. seriously i am happy and proud for him.. but it simply proves something about myself. He and I have almost the same kind of play.. maybe I enjoy the life more... but it shows... that he has indeed put more effort in his work than me when needed.
It is really quite a disappointing semester and i have no one to blame but me. It is my last semester and honestly.. it hasn't been the best as well. It is my last chance to do well.. but i've really wasted that chance. Now...even at this moment.. with guilt.. am still slacking my monday nights away.. knowing how many other assignments i have the next few weeks. argh!!! i shld constantly slap myself to face the reality.
I am such a lazy pig.. have been all my life... dammn...... and i am not even improving. I need to feel motivated.... really motivated.... i need a new burst of energy.. to get started with work. It really doesn't help that my writing skills sucks big time. I am unable to communicate my ideas properly in writing and put across the message right on my essay. So much for calling myself a communications student. What have i learned since poly till now???? I DUNNO!!!
oH WELL.... i have to start cracking... last chance.... i cannot give up....!!! I must graduate this semester feeling good about my grades!
