THE WEEKEND Well.. did quite alot of things over the weekend. Kevin's friend, Vincent, came to visit from Canberra. Luckily he came at the start of our holidays, so we could entertain him. Anyways... here's what we did.
Day One: Nothing much, I had 2 ssignments due that day, so kevin and vincent had to wait for me. After handing in my assignment, we went to thrifty to pay the car rental, followed by a trip to chadstone to kill time before meeting vincent other friend for dinner. I recommended having steamboat for dinner, the one at lonsdale street. But by the time we reached there, it was last order, so we headed to lygon to have some pasta and pizza then, followed by gelatissimo. The night was pretty much it.
Day two: Woke up early to go thrifty to pick up the car. We rented a Holden Commodore, it's 3.8litres and its damm nice! It had some cool features. Daniel and kareen rented one too and came along with us to ballarat. It was a pretty okie car ride to ballarat. There were five of us in the car (kevin, myself, vincent and his two other friends). The journey was about 1 hr 15 mins. Along the way... there were some nice sceneries, so wasn't all too bored. Reached about noon time at ballarat, had some decent fish and chips, and we headed to soverign hill (gold mine town). Well... i felt it was really ex to enter into the theme park, afterall.. the place wasn't say that fantastic, just really old school and rustic. But oh well.. for the experience, and seeing real gold.. why not. We saw what the 1800s was in australia, seeing the life of the miners and other people living in the gold mine area. There were people acting as the 1800s people, they wore the clothes, spoke like the 1800s people. We saw how miners mine for gold, went into a proper gold mine, watched gold smelting, etc.
But wat i felt was really quite fantastic was the nite show. It is only a sound and light show, but i felt the whole thing was really well done. The sound quality was quite good... it was as if i was watching a ghost play. The only thing was that all of us were really tired. By the time we reached home.. it was 11 ish.
Day three:
Well... we were suppose to wake up early to go church and all. but all of us slept in till abt 11ish am. Kevin and myself were deciding what to do, and where to bring vincent, especially when we had the rented car with us. Vincent wanted to try Melbourne's yum cha (he's quite pro-sydney, so he really wanted to compare and decide which is better). So... we brought him to shark fin's inn along chinatown to try the yum cha. It was not bad.. but i prefer Shark fins house (though it's under the same management). Vincent thought it was comparable with sydney's.
We had decided earlier in the day on where to go after yum cha. So after our really quick and filling lunch, we headed to bendigo, another outskirt in Victoria. This time the journey is longer, nearly 1hr 40 mins to reach bendigo. The scenery this time wasn't as great as ballarat's but it was still decent. By the time we reached bendigo it was already 3.00pm, really not much we could do. But we felt bendigo was a nicer place than ballarat, more things to cover, and it had a gold mine there as well. Anyways, we were recommended to visit the dragon museum. It's a chinese museum commemorating the chinese immigrants and settlers in bendigo. It was comical, coz i do not frequent singapore's chinese garden, and here we were in bendigo visiting the chinese garden attached to the museum. There weren't really alot to see, just some old artifacts, lion dance costumes, chinese furnitures etc in the museum. Right after, we decided to hjave a look at a lake, then the catholic cathedral, then go-kart area, eat ice-cream, and then go back to melbourne. What a trip eh? hehe
Anyways... back in melbourne, it had been planned to visit crown casino. Before that, we had dinner at this really nice small indonesian restaurant around chapel street. We heard so much abt it from other peopl that we decided to give it a try, and I was glad we weren't disappointed. It was really good and cheap. After dinner, headed to casino. Again.. i controlled myself, and played only $10 worth of pokies. Vincent and kevin played rapid roulette and black jack. For rapid roulette, vincent insisted on betting on NUMBER 21, coz that was his lucky number (so he claimed), apparantly it wasn't so for that night. 21 did not even come close to appear. But he was lucky to picked up some winning numbers. Both won a bit at the roulettes. They headed to blackjack... and initially they weren't doing well, so i thought it might be me (the gambling jinx) at work, so i stepped off (that's when i played pokies). But to prevent me frm touching the pokies machine again... i quickly walked back to watch them play. Overall... the whole night.. kevin made some and vincent lost $10 only.
Day four:
Vincent's friend brought him to great ocean road. Kevin and myself relaxed at home. Kevin had some work trainin in the morn.. so gave me the chance to sleep in till as late as i want too. The whole day was just dedicated for NUAING. In the afternoon, we watched the SG IDOL tape that my mum sent. We are really into SG idol now, since we;ve watched almost the everything abt it. I must say.. SG idol isnt as good as AMERICAN AND AUSTRALIAN IDOL, but nevertheless we do have some good talents in it. but the judges really cannot make it. Anyway.... till about evening, vincent called to arrange dinner, this time we wanted to try this really nice THAI restaurant (supposedly the best thai restaurant in melbourne) at richmond. Unfortunately, the place closes on monday, so we detoured and headed to have steamboat instead. The food was so-so.. but this time they had more things compared to last year. After dinner, vincent wanted to go back to casino.. his laast gambling for the trip. We went... i did play pokies, but it was on free credits, ended up winning $5 from it. Heh... Kevina n vincent wanted to follow the routine they had the previous nite, thought it was the winning formula. So they headed back to rapid roulette again. This time.. vincent continued to bet on his no. 21, and it still didn't come out. He was playin a losing battle; he placed $5 on his no and that's it... he was only betting his no. each round. Until he decided to follow kevin and include a $1 bet on colour black. If not I tink that would be the quickest $100 lost. Kevin lost quite a bit too... so they decide to not follow their winning formula and change it by playin pontoon instead. They lost $$ in pontoon too.. so they returned to the blackjack table for some last hope. They were up... but some young couple had to come in and change the whole table game. In the end, vincent lost abt $100 overall, kevin made a bit.
Day five:
This day was dedicated for shopping. We returned the car first, then drove kevin's car to DFO to shop. It was my first time there too... it was rather big, and it had a good variety, but i didn't buy as much as kevin and vincent. We headed to glen waverly for lunch, coz vincent wanted asian food really badly (see how insufficient canberra is?!) It was a pretty good meal.. went to Makan Street, another place recommended by a few to go and try. Headed to smith street right after. Went to the usual.... didnt really buy alot too.. just one adiddas top. Nice vintage top. Vincent bought quite alot of stuff too from smith street. After shopping, we went to meet vincent's two friends for dinner, this time we went back to the thai restaurant (YING THAI) for dinner. The food was good, but the serving was really small. Still.. i would highly recommend this place for a meal. Pad thai is really good, so is the tom yum soup.
After dinner, headed to lygon again to have gelatissimo, vincent wanted to try again. He still preferred sydney's one though. Oh well. how to fight right... too pro sydney already. After that.. it was time for him to head back to canberra. We could see he really didn't want to go back... more so taking the bus ride back.
It was sad for us to see another friend leave, coz that means we're back to boring life. But oh wel.. no complains, it is still a good life.
I will post some pics later on the ballarat trip...
More positive air will be good... I remembered when i was a child my aim in life or mission in life is to make people happy, coz if i see other people happy.. i'm happy. Lately... many entries have been unhappy, hurtful, and angry entries, including mine. Well... we all go through a period in life that we would feel super negative, low self-esteem, low self-confidence, and unhappy with the things around us or ourselves. Someone... one person's negativity spreads through to many people... and we all become influenced somehow. It is good to reflect on our lives and the surroundings, shows we're really interested in our lives and others. We grow stronger through such incidents; we learn from such things, improving ourselves for the future. I believe from these tensions... smething good must come out from it... if not why even bother to mention it?
Is blogging good or bad? Lately, there are many entries about personal blogs and the opinions about blogging. So does blogging equal personal voice? Is it really a useful tool to voice out your thoughts and opinions, just like how a diary works? Is it because it is online and that anyone can access it mean that we have to caution ourselves on the things we say? Does that mean we are not allowed to talk about other people? Does it then mean that blogging equals to gossiping or bitchin rather than personal voice? Is it also then right for people to slam you if you do write about them on your blog?
Well... i am kinda affected by what is happening lately. I am a true believer that blogging equals to personal opinions, isn't that why i signed up for an account? But unfortunately i do censor some stuff, so i won't in any attempt hurt anyone's feelings. But i really want too sometimes... coz i need an outlet to vent my frustrations. and hey.. isn't blogging an area for us to just shout out (electronically) and feel better letting our feelings out? If not.. then please tell me what is blogging for then?
Also... is it right to mention names in blogs? I mean.. if it's personal voice, shldnt it be right to mention names then? Do you write BOY A OR GIRL B did this or that on your written diary? No right? Well.... i am not sayin u have to write names.... but if it''s seriously necessary... why not right? It is afterall our opinions.
I think blogging really does affect many individuals. But sometimes i don't agree to some ways being responded to blogs. I still believe face-to-face interaction is better to settle conflicts then bombarding online. It sickens me more to see people posting comments as anonymous. Conflicts cannot be settled if you are not made known. Isnt the point of raising issues mean to show who u are... so that things can be solved? Also.. i truly feel religion shld stay out when making comments. No one.. and i really mean no one has the right to call who a bad christian, muslim, hindu or buddhist. More so, it isn't right to slander the church, mosque or temple. Do not blame religion for issues. People are human beings, and human beings are no saints. Does it mean that u lie, means your church taught u to lie? Reflect. It is only God, Allah, whichever hindu God or Buddha that has that right to say whether u've been good or bad.
Well... my two cents are up. I wish everyone can settle issues in the most mature and compromised solution. I truly believe that no one person shld gain from any conflict, but that the involved parties gain as well. Compromise.
1st ever tension in the house! It seems my household is getting interesting. There is tension in the air. I woke up this morning and heard two housemates talking about something, something relating to having a household meeting tonight, i thought it was some household matters, such as cleanliness etc. But then i heard something about to clear the misunderstanding or something along that line. Hmm.... interesting i told myself.. but i was just too sleepy and stoning myself away on the toilet bowl to really decipher what could be going on.
Then... revelation popped up as I went to the kitchen. Two notes were pasted onto one wall and the fridge, and it was pretty colour and long. One of my housemates was in the kitchen, and told me what was going on. I read the note and I knew exactly then what was happening. Seems the bitching session has began between several housemates of mine, over certain issues that one of my housemates voiced out in the personal blog.
I am not surprise with the reaction and response.... the only thing that surprises me is that the thing was pasted really late... i slept ard 4 plus... i assumed everyone was asleep already. Anyway... the issue here is that one person is complaining about a few people, and the things that they do in the house. I must admit the entry written by my housemate did sound a bit too blunt and harsh, but that's personal opinions... so i respect that right. Well... my other housemates on the other hand... responded to that blog entry... i am assuming... it's someone writing for someone else. In the sense.. defending the friends.
I rather not this to happen.... i mean... they are bound to see each other. We are afterall staying in the same house. But this is something i feel has to be dealt with soon. No one is suppose to suffer, each has their own rights to do what they want... but i hope a compromise will be made out of this.
I will not comment on what i feel about this, i am not home most of the time to really care as well. But i do wish peace and harmony in the house. It is indeed not easy to stay in a house with so many people. 8 people is no mean feat. Now we have 9.. so it's a bit more difficult. I understand each one has their own privacy and all, i like my privacy too... but there is a level of compromise we must make. It's a relationship we have to maintain. a positive one that is. So just like any other relationships, we must learn to give and take, sacrifice, and care for others.
Well.... i rather not be in such situations honestly. I hate confrontations. So.... hope all goes well between the 2 parties.
One more day to the term break! I hate it when i have 2 assignments due on the same day. Both with high weightage to it. One is 40%, the other 25%. Hai... I'm almost done with one... but the big one... sheesh... havent started writing yet. I still need to read more work.. before i can start typing. It doesn't help that i keep feeling tired. I'm not sure why i am always so tired. I sleep enough, more than 7 hours sometimes. But yet I still feel tired. Is there something wrong with my health?? I think i remember someone told me that it's due to lack of iron. Well.... guys.... lack of iron is due to we girls monthly period. Oh well....
Anyway... the topic i'm writing for my BHS assignment is interesting. Question is, why do relationships end and why some endure. It is interesting to know the theories behind these questions. I think it's good too for myself.. having been in a relationship for 3 yrs 7 months. That's really long.... honestly. I can treat this as a self help period to see ways to maintain a relationship. Oh well will type out some theories out soon right after i'm done with my essay.
okie.... i really want to concentrate my work. God give me energy and alertness!
Oh ya... i posted some pics taken frm melbourne show. Not as many as last year's coz every thing is pretty much the same.
Appreciate the honesty I thank renee for her honesty. I do understand what she means.. and there is no need to apologise for being harsh... you're not. :)
Well... i dont want to say u all are the bad guys...i guess i feel i find it harder to enter into this friendship circle. I really try not to blame everything else. Like i said... i believe i am to be blamed too. You are right that the people I hang out with don't hang out much with u guys too. And those u hang out with... i dont hang out much either. I do wish things could be different.. but i guess not.
But i hope u can understand why I am reacting this way. Throughout my life... i never really had a group of close friends... or more so.. a group that would call each other once in awhile and hang out. I did have... but that was in primary school. other than that... nope.
Eventhough you all dont interact much with each other, especially when u all are busy... but at least u all still contact each other when there's a chance too. All i'm sayin is that i'm not one of those u would call.
Maybe again... u are right... i shldn't blame anyone. What's happening to me now... I do play a major role in it.
I'm sorry if I have offended u all with the words i've said. No hard feelings?
I have a BLOGPET! Yep! I have just 'bought' myself a pet, an electronic one that is. It's something like tamagochi.. but it's way smarter and less hungrier and definately won't die. Cool eh? Thought i follow the rest and spice up my blog.
But i rather it to be a dog than a cat. But nevertheless it's harmless. But i dunno what to name it yet. Oh well. any ideas people?
Anyway.. i'm in class now... english class. I shifted it from my 3-5pm class to 9-11am class. Makes more sense so i wont waste the rest of the day, and it's stupid to go for one class in the middle of late afternoon.
Doing a class assignment now... it's about web designing... but the really basic kind.. so it's kinda boring. Hence this entry.
I was reading my previous entries.... well... it is a sad thing... but i guess i really have to embrace it. If I am destined to have no close friends.. and this time i mean close girl friends.. then so be it. I guess i'm too tom-boyish to really talk or bitch about things.
To you girls... and i think u know who u girls are... I truly am happy and glad to know you girls. I wished it could have been better and that we could have gotten closer, but i acknowledge the circumstances that do not allow that to happen. I truly wanted to be in your group. To chit chat, have tea, go clubbing, go shopping.. etc... but like i said... circumstances dont allow that. However, i will remember you bunch, and the good memories of us having fun (more from last yr).
I guess.... it's still nice to know people still talk to me... at least they do.. and not totally heck care about me.
hai....
I miss having close friends. I really do. especially female close friends.
I know my worth as a Friend I finally realised what worth i have as a friend. ZERO... or at least minimal in each of my so called friend's mind. Nope.. they didnt tell me straight in the face.... but nonverbal behaviour tells it all. Maybe i'm too sensitive...but i believe some common gestures should occur when one sees u.. especially if you've known them for quite awhile.
shld i be blunt and say who.... i rather not. I'm not saying these people aren't nice people.. or aren't the best of friends. I treat them all the same... i choose to value their friendship... coz i realised friendship is wat i'm lacking in my life now to make it complete. I don't know if it's just me as a person... like i'm not approachable to say hi too or talk too... but i guess after today.. i do realise.... my worth. I'm not a friend to them... but has been demoted to mere acquantances (did i spell that right?).
I dont wish to have people being so excited when they see me, i'm not all that popular... but why i didn't even deserve a decent HI.. HOW ARE YOU? Only a person who's insignificant doesnt get that greeting. Even when i did say hi..... the response was.... hmm.... i dunno how to describe.
Question... is it because i've not participated in any of the activities u guys have.. that i'm out of the friendship circle. Is it because i never call to chit chat or bitch around that i lost that special title to be your friend. Is it because i'm simply a terrible person with no heart, feelings or whatsoever that led things to such extent?
I dunno which one is it... but i reckon its one of those.
I'm too boring??? maybe...
I can't gossip and bitch that much??? maybe....
I can't hold a proper conversation??? maybe....
I'm too quiet??? maybe....
I have no communications skills??? maybe....
what's the point of learning human relationships now this sem... when i feel things are just getting worst.
I asked someone today.. what will he/she miss here in melbourne. The response is all of his/her friends whom he/she became closed with this year... but i'm not in it. I feel saddened by that. I dont blame him/her.
I guess it is clear.... my issues with friendships.. or what i should say as lasting friendships will forever plagued me and my life.
I am sad... but i feel it's too late to really rectify anything.
I'm gng home anyway.... maybe a new life ahead?
but uni is such a stepping stone in my life.... i hate to leave her with a bad thought and feeling.
Royal Melbourne Show (Better than last years?) The royal mel show is back again.. from 16th sept to 25th sept. I still remember going for it last year with the ex SAM exco committee members (janelle, danny, renee, and alvina) Josh and paul didnt come. Charmaine was in singapore for her show. Well.... this year... i went with a different group, i went with this year's new SAM exco committee (Jiarong, Keith, Samuel, Rachael, Yi Cheng, Wendy, Kelvin, Kareen) and friends (janelle, jon, danny, oaky, gerard, daniel and Sam's friends) and of course with Kevin. This year however was not as warm and friendly as last year's. People were not going as a group of friends, everyone was scattered, some with thoughts on their minds, bothered by realities etc. It just didn't feel the same. Some didn't come because of some personal problems, sickness, boredom.... well... life indeed changed this second half of the year. But that's another entry altogether.
Nevertheless, I was happy to go for the show again... buying all those showbags, eating the chocos, looking people taking those thrill rides, see fat cows, ugly sheeps, adorable dogs, smelly horses and diving pigs, take pictures, play games, literally.. just enjoying an annual melbourne thing. My last few months in mel... must soak in whatever culture i can before i go home for good.
Manged to get the newoman showbag.. couldn't buy it last year, coz it was sold out. So.. the first show bag i bought was that! Got the FHM one too... that's for kevin. Well... thanks to MI's special... managed to go to the show for $5 (includes transport to and fro and entrance fee). Entrance fee itself was $15 for concession... if i had to take my own transport.. it would cost me another $5 or more for a day ticket. Thank god MI is rich! hahah!
Anyway... this year.. didn't walk the whole area...just the carnival area, and showbags area. Wasn't as fruitful as last year's. But this yr i played more games, wanted to add in to the collection of toys for the car. Kevin and myself played the racing game where u have to throw balls into numbered hols to earn points. We played 4 rounds... finishing either third or fourth.. damn! Okie.. nvm... then we attempted another racing game... this time shoot the water onto the bullseye... again.. we were close. Then kevin tried the shooting game... almost cleared the star... then he tried the throwing the ball into the pail game... all four bounced out. sigh..... kermit will continue to stay single till we win something.. next time round.
well.. this year... bought the willy wonkers showbag again.. but this time bought the mega one.. which came with 4 other small showbags, and one jester cap. hehehe.. cool... twice in a row i have a hat. Didn't buy the cadbury one this year... will try to refrain from chocos!!! hahah yeah right....
anyway... the day was still fun.... at least i had kevin to have fun with me.... i hope he had fun too.. i think he did la. But i wished.. the group was more united.... not as messy....not as troubled too. Well.... that's life eh??
now.. i'm off to next blue... supporting them with this movie screening, shallow hal. Watched it many times.. but well... can get free entry in after that.. so go lor... plus sam and his friends are gng too... but doubt i'll stay long. can't drink anyway.. i'm driving.. heheh good too la... dont have to add the calories.
Character no good....then gambling game no good...then the luck will always be no good. That above statement is taken from a Hongkong movie about gambling, emphasing on the game of mah jong! I totally agree with that above statement! The leading actor, Mr Andy Lau aka Mah jong Warrior, said that sentence to his ex gf, Gigi Leung aka The bitch who throws tantrums each times she loses. It makes so much sense...in real life. Well.. at least to me.. and I have proof! To some people.. who might know and have witnessed, each time i lose $$ in casino... i kinda get really upset and would start throwing a little tantrum. I just couldn't believe I'll keep losing $$. Well.. then.... yesterday.. kevin and myself headed to casino.. to earn our free parking..and this time i decided to not gamble and be a really patient and nice girl when kevin plays. And guess what... each game (pokies, rapid roulette, blackjack) he played.. he won money.. and I did not throw any fit or what not to him.
I think... i must control myself.... i have to change my character. That above sentence does not apply to gambling only.. in fact Andy Lau in the show also said... character no good, everything else u do.. will not be good too. That is so true. I reflected upon myself, in terms of my character and i conclude I have changed... whether its for worst or better... i think what i've become is more of a negative point than a positive one.
here's why:
I swear more... the word FUCK is a regulary vocabulary/expression for me. (Those who knows me for years... i do not swear at all... i find it hard to let that word out..!) I throw tantrums... i will grumble... make noise.. if i dont get what i want.. do what i want to do... and yes... if i lose loads of $$. (I never throw tantrums...i never show face too.... in the past) I become ruder... sometimes dont think before i say (I won a courtesy award before in school... so what u think! sigh...)
Those above are some of the many changes i've made since maybe after poly. It seems i've toughen up myself, but there goes my good girl image too. It's bothering me... and many are judging me for that.. One is GOD... second is myself/ my conscious.... third.. those around me.
I attribute my miserable life now to my character... my not niceness that's affecting every bit of my life.
Maybe life will be better if i do the following:
stop swearing
be patient
control temper
be nicer
stay humble
start doing assignments early
stop gambling
go for classes
go to church
smile more
be sincere
be generous to charity
be more helpful to the poor and weak
stop being so cynical
Easier said than done. I just want to die a happy person.. to know that i led a good life... knowing i did the right things... and that my conscious is clear. Not that i want to cleanse my body to be totally pure... but enough to know I am a good person.. and that when i judge myself.. and when GOD judge me on judgement day... i know... what i did and what i change to do the right thing is right.
self criticsim is the best sort of reflection anyone can get.... accepting self criticsim and working on it is the toughest anyone can achieve. If one can achieve by changing for the better, that person will go a long way... and everything will be right for u.
as Andy lau in the movie said...
if character becomes better, everything u do will become better, and that includes mahjong
there are times i let others down coz i can't make it to meet other friends. I'm sorry.... i wish i was a more socialble person.. i wish i was much nicer,friendlier, chattier, bitchier, and more confident abt myself.
Honestly.. i wished i had a renewal in life... maybe there's still time... i dunno..... something has to be done... but i dunno how... maybe too late... maybe too lazy... maybe i cant be bothered?? but if im not... then why do i feel this way.. time and time again!!
mayb coz i have no $$... thats why i feel i cannot socialise much.. coz most socialising ... u need cash!! but then again... not all the time...
Okie..... let's see... do I have a social life? What is social life? Maybe... to me.. its abt... meeting up and catching up with friends. Now... I came to realise one point... which has become a pattern in my life since secondary school.
I had a group of close friends when I was in primary school, they were my neighbourhood friends. We played, bitch,go school, celebrate mooncake festival,had tuition etc together. Those were really fun days. Okie.. then we moved on to secondary school, and we drifted abit.. but still managed to catch up once inawhile. But things were just different.
Okie.. then in sec school.. i had another group of close friends, they were the prefectorial board executive committee members and a couple of other friends. They too were a fun bunch. We stayed back for fun after class just to hang out. We saw each other going through puppy love, had relationships, relationships screwed up.. etc.. basically... whatever must happen at adolescent ages.. we saw it through together. Then we all moved on to polytechnic, and everyone went their own ways, and soon... we all were no longer in contact.. unless we bumped into each other somewhere somehow.
Okie... then in Polytechnic, met a great bunch of people, they were my first yr classmates. The best classmates ever. We grouped together the moment we knew each other, we waited for each other at the bus stop just to go class, we had class chalets, we went shopping, watched movies, took neoprints... basically... the really fun people was in my class. Well..then we moved on to yr 2.. then yr 3... slowly.. several cliques formed becoz all had different classes.. but then I still had a group of friends i hanged out with. However, I hanged out with different groups of people... i never really had one group of people that i really really hanged out with. Soon I realised.. i was moving ard as a friend.
Okie... then came church...I too had a group of friends whom I met... I was the new girl.. knew nobody... but after joining a youth group... i managed to ease my way into the circle of friends. We also headed out for supper after friday nights' classes, we bitched abt things, gossiped about who we dislike.. and who we find disgusting. Basically... they were a good bunch of people. I was glad i had them to welcome me into the community... not easy for me.. coz these people knew each other since young... and i mean... like primary school onwards.
Okie.. then came Kevin.. my boyfriend.. and still is. Through him.. i met another group of friends... half whom i knew b4 him. Mainly guys.. but not branched out to include their gfs. Well.. they've been fun as well... and i really admire this group of friends. They knew each other since young... and have been best buds since then. This is wat i call true friendship... coz all of them are very different. All had different backgrounds, personalities, and characters, but yet.. they still can blend in well and become great friends. They are just such a nice sight to see.. and i honestly envy them. They were warm in welcoming me into the group... and I'm really glad they did that.
Okie.. then came Uni.. I had no friends when i came here, cept for Alvina, who was from the same poly as me. We hunged out, got to know each other better, and literally did everything we could together, such as grocery shopping, exercising, cooking, baking, studying, bitching, clubbing.. etc. That was good times. In the Halls, where we stayed.. we met another great group of friends... a multicultural mix.. japanese, vietnamese, malaysians, american, australians. They were great too, made my life in halls so much better. Then later in our uni life... we met another group of great friends, the SAM executive committee. Boy, did i have fun with them. The made me feel so comfortable, simply because they brought back a piece of singapore to me. It just feels like home when I'm with them in Melbourne. It's always nice to find something like home when ur alone overseas. Then I met another group of friends whom I got along well with... and still am getting along with.
The problem is... after seeing all these group of friends i had.... I only have one group that i really hanged out with.. and that's kevin's friends. But thats also coz... i'm with kevin most of the time.. and hence i see them often..that's when im in sg.
Here in mel... those group of friends i have... the SAM committee... the new friends...well... i feel i'm slowly and again.. out of the social circle. Everyone has someone to hang out with...whereas for me... I have kevin only.
I think it's just me... I dont know how to maintain friendship.. i dont have the habit to call people and talk to them.. i dont have the initiative to call and ask.."hey wanna go for coffee/lunch?" I dont even know how to hold a proper conversation with people. I am just not close enough with them. I know i have friends... but i dont have a group of close friends... or at least a couple of them. I had one each period in my life... and we all seem drift now. Each of them moved on and found other close friends. Hai...
is it me..?? am i really bad in sociallising? I think this is bad.... 21.5 yrs of my life... where are my friends???? even a couple.. and i am grateful.
People.. think... have i ever been in your mind when u wanna ask someone for coffee or lunch or shop?
WRITING AGAIN It's been how long since i wrote here? I think more than 2 weeks. Anyway... a lot happened the passed weeks. Some good... some tiring.. some bad. Lets recollect:
Hmmm my friend, Marcus arrived in melbourne 2 weeks ago. Glad to see him, it's always nice to see a familiar face visiting. Though kevin and myself had assignments to do when marcus was here, it was still fun to have him around. We went shopping, eating out, gambling, mahjong, etc. Marcus bought alot of stuff... and all expensive stuff too.. haha and to think he budgeted himself $500 to spend in 10 days. I think in the end.. he spent almost $1k for this trip. Let's see what he bought, 1 pair of addidas shoes, several nikes, some clothing, 1 customised crumpler bag, 1 shisha set, 1 freshjive trucker cap, and 1 turn table and several vinyls. I think he bought more stuff.. but can't rem... already..
I think he likes melbourne... hahah.. told u melbourne is better than sydney... still thinking of gng there to study? Melbourne has such spirit, culture, and life!
Okie.. while he was here, I was working as well.. worked at this fine food exhibition as a food promoter for this vietnamese company. It was tiring, standing up holding trays of food for about 8 hours each day. The only time i sat down was when i visited the toilet. But the good side of the job was that there was so much food around that lunch for that four days were was free. I hate a great gelato shop across my shop, an excellent almost perfect taste of vegetarian 2 shops away, cake shops, chocolate shops everywhere. Literally.. everything u can find in the food business.. u can find it at the exhibition. My shop was selling aloe vera, soy bean milk, and can drinks. There was a wine section as well, a big section in fact, for people to go and wine taste. I brought a few people in, like marcus, jiarong and rachael. They literally were in the exhibition for 6 hours!!! Impossible!!! Anyway.. it's finally over...but my hard earned money is gng to feed the stupid traffic policemen!
yes.. people.. I had my first fine. $102!!! coz i parked in the clearway area on smith street. It's my fault. I wont blame anyone. I didn't see the signboard clearly. oh well... just my luck. Hai.... Crown wasn't helping either.... but now.. really tryin to refrain from gambling in crown. Until I know how to control... then I will return.
Now.. marcus has left.. about 2 days ago... had been busyin with my com 3020 assignment. I changed my angle 3 times... i really hate writing articles with broad questions. Oh well.. I think im not suitable to be a communications student. I write badly.. not 'CHEEM' enough.. and i always have diffficulty understanding the question. Oh well.... besides.. what i'm studying does not relate to what i'll do in the working world. So what I understand the Internet and its impact??? Uh huh?? so???? Ye.. it has social, political impact....and ye??? will this understanding earn me my money next time and feed me? Oh please!!
Universities should start introducing new subjects that are essential for our future.... but coz some lecturer wrote many books on this subject.. hence the topic? Bleah!!!
mid-week wednesday! Now... shld i say "YEAH!!!" that it's wednesday already... or shld i say, "SIGH" that it's wednesday already. Happy... in a sense that my weekend is starting in 2 hours time, sad... in a sense... i havent started on my work!! I'm worried... quite worried actually. It's only 1500 words, but I can't seem to get started on it. Well.... i hope tonight I'll get something done... I aim to write 500 words tonight, hopefully 300 tomorrow, then 200 on friday, and finish the rest off on Saturday. So at least on sunday I can edit my work, or leave that as an emergency day. The essay is due on Monday, 5pm.. but I have work, so i must finish it by sunday. Oh well.... life!
Anyway... marcus has arrived. He's the friend i've been saying is gng to visit kevin and me. Well... i think he's enjoying himself... I hope he is. Managed to bring him to quite a few places, mainly shopping districts. He went to Chapel street, Brand Smart DFO, Chadstone, Lygon street, Crown Casino, Caufield and Clayton. The itinery for the next few days will be Smith Street, Richmond, Queen Vic mart, Kew, Camberwell, mel uni's talentime, soccer friendly, stripshow at men's gallery, maybe clubbing, and clifton and claire's place. Ye... quite abit for the next few days. Tonight he'll be watching kevin play pool, then maybe mahjong at samuel's community centre. We watched a VCD on a show abt mahjong... OMIGOD... i'm so inspired by that show... hehehe... it's not real... but it's unbelievable!! I must master the art of mahjong! I must make friends with the mahjong tiles and call them buddies! ehhehe!
Now i'm in the com labs waiting for my class to start. I wished i could skip this class... but can't... really quite tired.... and sleepy. I would love to go to gym later.... if time permits. I really dunno how to tone up and lose weight!!! hai.... really dunno.
Anyway... I've officially step down frm SAM. It went well.... the expected won. Congrats to the new team... really hope you'll do well.. :) I forgot to say something in my speech yesterday... and that is to thank my GEN COMS... so so soorrry!!! THANK YOU KEITH AND THANK YOU GERMAINE!!!
oh well... life will slow down a lil after this... good.? hope so!
