listening to jay chou song now... titled Tornado (long quan fong).. shit man.. i really love his songs, especially the ballads. They are so sentimental and romantic. I wish i can sing the whole song, so i can truly understand what he's singing about. I miss karaoke!!!! hahaha marcus (a friend) sings this song almost every time we got karaoke.. and jenson (another friend) would try his very best to read the words and sing it. I miss those days... so much fun...! I think kevin would back me up on that.
I guess i'm feeling very sentimental now.... since jay chou songs are so touching.. hahaha! I had a good weekend, valerie came down, so that gave alvina and myself a chance to head to the city to meet her. But coz valerie came with friends and was stayin at her friend's friend place, so she couldn't decide what time we can meet and all. So alvina and myself decided to just use this opportunity to catch up with each other, since we haven't really hanged out as much as last time already. We headed to the dan dan mien shop, to eat the red bean pancake and the guo tie. We really talked and chatted alot, it was just really catching up on good old times. We shared alot of things, i just felt we needed this chance to talk to each other. I really enjoyed our chit chat session... we haven't had much time to just sit down and chat.. coz she's busy with her new life, and i have kevin ard as well.... simply.. life was not the same as last yr.
But after our chats yesterday, I felt i have not lost a friend... and i know alvina does value our friendship and my presence. It just felt right.... and comfortable to know that. We even went back to our fav toilet to do our stuff... ha!
Basically... this whole week has been great! I hanged with my friends after the kill billl vol 2 show.. kevin went back to his home to finish an assignment, so that left me some time to catch up with my friends. I felt this would be the perfect balance. To have friends and boyfriend ard u... and stay happy.
Val's visit to melbourne also made it good for me.... its nice seeing her again after so long... i think it's almost a yr??? She's still her chirpy self... haha! That girl... wore 4 layers!!!! she think its winter ah!!! ahha and i wore 2 layers only, and inside it was my "f***" tee.. ahha. Coz she was with her friends... didn;t really have an opportunity to have a good catch up session with valerie... but hopefully she comes back soon and this time for a longer time.. she's here like from sat to mon only!! too short!
Anyway... i found out some bad news... and it was shocking to me... really shocking, and again i was one of the last to know. I didn't believe the news i heard. I thought they could go on strong... seeing how in love they are... and how much they care for each other. It's not just one couple.. its 2 couples... I wish i wouldn't hear such things, coz i know how painful it would be. One conclusion though..... why be in a relationship when u know u will end up hurting the person u claim u love??? I know its still the "im young" reason... but come on.... its still not right...!!! But again.. i'm in no position to comment.. and i would b bias too. However..here's what i have to say.... Make up your mind what u want in your lives, to continue to be in denial that you have plenty more time ahead.. i say bull shit to that, everything that happens now, will affect our future. You can only play that much now..... 22 gng on 23... 21 gng on 22... i mean.... once ya out there... u'll be struggling to survive. Don't regret... coz u wanna play...that's your fault. Once it's gone.. its gone... there's no such thing as being weak anymore. People do move on.. and its proven. You make your own shit, not others. U deal with your own shit, not others. U fail... not others. Pick up the right pieces and make something gd out of it??? try i say.
Okie.. maybe i aint making sense now.... but it's just bits and pieces coming out of my little brain. We are humans afterall... we have feelings....every action, every decision, every comment, every movement affects not only you... but others too.... remember.... we affect people... people affect us. Do something right for once......and things will definately go the right path with that first right step!
okie i shld stop coz im blabber on towards nonsense. till tom... gd nite
