i am wondering.... what kind of friend am i to people around me, close ones and not so close ones. Also... why issit so hard to just get along or find conversation with some people? Even if i went forward to talk to people... some just answer me in a couple of sentences and then i have to ask another question. Okie... i feel i cannot hold a proper conversation with a particular someone, and sadly this someone is a girl. why has it always got to be a female!!! I get along well with guys.. always have.. since young till now... maybe I'm tom boyish enough to get along well...but I am very upset and frustrated I cannot talk to girls. I mean there are those exceptions whom I can talk about anything with them.... but there are just some pple whom i know can be a really good friend.. that i cannot seem to enter into their lives.
well.... i noticed this and feel strongly about this particular female. She's nice and all... but... she's just too... hmmm not as friendly towards me as how she would to other pple. You can see her face expression change instantly when she sees another female friend of hers... and when she sees me. Each time i speak in a group.... and i notice her face expression... it's that not interested look.
Not that im offended or what... but i feel not welcomed in your life. We walk side by side... and i have to be the one opening my mouth to talk to you.... and when i keep quiet... u keep quiet too. Haven't I tried to initiate something??? Or is it because I have not been around all that often.. that you feel I betrayed the friendship? Or is it i'm not fun enough for you that i feel pretty ostracised by you..
It's weirder to know that you're the only one treating me this way... everyone else is themself when i'm ard.. except you. It seems u choose who u want to be really friendly with... and i wonder.. what have i done to you to deserve such treatment.
Oh well..... u'll never know who you are... i just feel bloody sick of all these already!
