it sux knowing that u cannot enjoy life if you are not financially equipped. i feel restrained and choked up simply knowing i can't really do what i want to do bcoz i dont have the $$$ for it. I envy others who have relatively rich parents to sponsor them fully in australia. Their lifestyle, their wishes. Unfortunately, mine can't. But i know its wrong to feel this strain. I have to be supportive, and try my best to ease the tension. But why is it.... SO HARD TO FIND MONEY????? each day... money seems to be flying past me.... i dun't really know what im spending on.
It sux even more.. knowing u can do quite alot of things (i want to do) if i have reasonable amt of money. But i can't. I CAN'T!
It saddens me more that i might have to give up one thing i really want to do simply bcoz i dont have the cash to do it. I need to get a job soon....... i'm panicking inside..... i'm tryin hard too... trying very hard i think. But why no one wants me????? I'm a good worker.... i'm sure ill do a good job??
arghh!!!!!!!!
if only some people understand the difficulties one has.
