had my interview, let's just say it went pretty okie. They asked the usual, "how can u contribute to the company, what skills u have, what are the challenges u feel u will encounter when u work, do u get along well with colleagues, what computer skills u have, what kind of person am i, can i take take instructions properly, am i able to communicate well,... yada yada yada...."
But the most impt question i feel is, "do you drive?" man.... maybe thats the deciding factor! sigh... the place seems good, its near school, good pay, nice people.... but heard competition is strong. argh!!!! I knew something bad will happen.
talked to my mum today, and i feel so sad talkin to her, coz i know how hard she's struggling to keep the family together (financially).... and i feel really bad spending all these money while she's struggling to earn them. Told her i needed money, to pay rent, ski trip, the producers tix... sigh.... thats alot of money. I never knew the producers tix would be this ex.... sigh.. kinda regretted abit abt wanting to watch it. But too late now.
Actually I do have thoughts abt skipping ski trip, coz its simply too ex for just a 3 d 2 n thing. But then again its my last yr, and I do have to at least experience it once while im here, if not i dun't know when i can go traveeling to some ski mountain. Life's tough, and I'm learning it the hard way. Doesn't help that kevin has been emphasising how i spend my money, shit!! i get so angry when he does that, but i can't blame him, he's teaching me a lesson (verbally).. and i jsut get so pissed coz i know im guilty.
Honestly, why do some people just can have it so easy for them. Where do they get all these money from. I wonder do they know how lucky they are to have the money and the freedom to spend and do things. Even if they are tight, they have their parents to send them the money. They dont have to work for that extra cash.
Okie... i'm just so stressed in getting a job. I'm not as stressed in my studies than finding a job. I tried to save some money, each day i put in coins into my new piggy bank, its moving slow... real slow. And its amazing how much my phone bills are this month!! its so bloody ex!! $130 ++ thats madness!!
Money money money... why has it always got to do with money money money..... honestly... if known that the financial situation is not good.. i wouldn't have come to australia to study. I guess sometimes u need to sacrifice somethings for the better good of others. i wish i can be that sacrificial and selfless.
I wonder if its worth it at all.... is my happiness more impt or other people's happiness more impt? How do one actually managed to balance the both. I find it hard. I find it extremely hard coz i'm still young. I haven't really had a fun childhood/teenhood... and I wish i can make up for it while i'm a young adult, but somehow... i'm forced to grow older by 5 yrs each time i encounter a problem.
Honestly, this is like my final year i can ever do anything i want to do with the freedom to do anything, bfore i head home and slave for the rest of my life. Shss... this is scary... I wish i was 18 again.. and I know how many changes i would have made if i had a chance to be 18 again.
I'm not complainin that my life sux.. but more so that sometimes.. life is unfair.... and i know i cannot compare my life with others.. neither should i feel so envious of them... coz i know... i led a good life too. just not as good as some.
Oh well.... enough complaining..... problem is there means its there. nothing will ever change that. I wish God heard my desparate calling for help... urgent help!!
